cut it short :)

Always remember this.. If today was perfect there would be no need for tomorrow. :)

today lily presentation as i thought some are not participate but this is your choice, nothing to do with me. so you get 0marks. for those who are presenting (my group member) you guys are playing the fool!! when is play time i play wiht you guys when  is joke time i joking with you guys, but when presenting can you guys take it seriously? still like a kid.. acting like an idiot and simply present. done with this part!!!

and i got test on 2 but i thought is after lily class so i got 2 hours nothing to do... i go and buy myself some food and bing it along inside lab room... i open my fb and play some comments with my friend and is extremely boring so i go google and search for "how to become a vamp" i got a crazy thought in my mind nowadays... i want to become a vamp although is sounds crazy but to me it might me a real one out there... just to wait the right time and the luck to meet one of them  :) i want to know more abou the real vamp not that the vamp in the movie, i want to know the real thing what is going on with them... how they hunt. is they really can walk under the sun, could they read and control mind and run so fast... :S

after i go back home is about 3. i watch 1 movie and rest for while.... and about 5 or 6 my korean girl friend online so we chatting about 1hours plus and she went for dinner and i train myself for while... today is very tiring so... i just do some light training... and i cook myself things to eat, bath... and i have a webcam section with my korean friend.. she is really nice and for your information she is pretty hot (she is older than me) but still look very very HWAAT! :)

we share our problems and some of our culture, there is something between us... i feel like i know her for long.. we can talk and talk.. laugh and laugh together... is really an awesome moment when i spend with her. she treat me like a small boy and i keep saying that i am mature enough, haha. she told me if i am older than him.... he would pick me as his Xx, LOL. maybe she is drunk at that time. hahha :)

i cut today journal into short short one so thats it! some are coming to me and ask if i could intro that korean girl that i know to them... NO WAY.! she is mine. lol. hahahah ... i will give you guys way to contact her unless you guys can find someone to turn me VAMP.  :P night nation. take care!

your face caught my eye, your personality caught my heart <3

wedding dress(english cover)

[LYRICS]
[Jason Chen]
(Intro)
Some say its not over til its over
But I guess its really over now.
Theres something I gotta say before I let you go
Here it goes

Every time he breaks your heart
You would hit me up and say
That Im the only man who knows how to treat you right
And so I comfort you but right right right away
You go back to him and make the same damn mistakes
Girl I was always there to care for you when you were down
Dont say that friends are all that we are ever gonna be
Cut out the drama
Come to me, I know you wanna
Girl I know thats what we both dream of

[Chorus]
Baby, please dont take his hand and leave me here
Cause you should be my lady, come with me and wipe away those tears
Once the music ends you will take a vow to be with him forever
But you know Im the man who you want to be with for the rest of your life
Dont put on that wedding dress
Girl dont put on that wedding dress
(Its not me next you)
Dont put on that wedding dress, oh no

[Tommy C.]
Snappin out this misery
Depression this aint me
But I always turn around
180 degrees

You got control of me
And I, I cant explain
Somebody call 911 Emergency
Before I go insane

Since youve moved on
You took a piece of me give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack

It's too late, Im dancing this dance alone

(Chorus)
Baby
Can't believe that you are not with me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress

[I.J.D.]
Single life aint used to this
How does one live like this?
Wake up alone, with nothing but pictures of me and you
Memories were better when I, I was with you
Now I just sit here as I cry, cry over you
You moved on with your life, and now in love with another guy
I couldve been the one, but I gotta wait, should you be mine
Im just a lover, just waitin for his other
Dont care how long Ill love you forever

[Chorus]
Baby, please dont leave so suddenly from me
You used to be my lady, now Im hopin we just remain friends
But always remember that baby you are always beating fast inside of my heart girl
And always know that Im still here, waiting for you
And that day to finally arrive
When youre in that wedding dress dress
Girl, when youre in that wedding dress dress
Wedding dress dress
I promised in your wedding dress
Oh no

[J.Reyez]
And I see you with your man and it's hard to understand
If we belong, if I did you wrong, where we even began
We would always fuss and fight and it seems nothing was right
But I loved you girl and you were my world but you'd never trust this guy
'Cause the things I do when I'm on the stage, they say I'm a superstar
You couldn't understand all the female fans and then we grew apart
And I just don't get when you're acting like some other person
But I try my best to hold on at the times when it ain't working
And everytime that you say it's over it breaks my heart and I don't know why
'Cause you've done it a lot of times in the past but I get back up and try
You said we could work it out, how could you hurt me now
And you moved on to the next, I'm left with an imperfect smile

[Chorus]
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress

[I.J.D.]
Can't find the words to say to you
But all I wanna say is I do
I just want you in my life
Baby, come back be my wife
Cant endure the pain no more
CPR, need surgery
Just cant live another day without you in mind
Its just too difficult, I want you back, I need your love back in my life
Whoa

[Jason Chen]
Once the music ends, Ill be saying my goodbye to you forever
And just know even though our love didnt work out, I am still here for you
Now youre in your wedding dress
Girl now youre in your wedding dress
(Shouldve been me, shouldve been me)
Oh youre wearing that wedding dress, oh no

the 1st spag i cook in my life time :)

for my 1st time i cook spag.. i give myself 8/10. lol. is nice to me or just i am too hungry? hahhaa! 


today i done my job for the lily presentation slide i did it all my own and i feel proud for that. about the past... No one can go back and change a bad beginning,But anyone can start now and create a successful ending . :) i will move on! 


today i make friend with 1 australian and 1 south korean girl :) australion is pretty cool and south korean is even nicer! they both speak good english... about my presentation maybe i can get help from the korean side because the topic i need to present is about KOREAN :)


stop perform magic for while.. i need to concentrate on my study 1st or else i would be regret in the future, night nation and continue your support ty!!! :DD 


My spag and New photo of me will be upload soon! cya :)

reached SUBANG safely :)

in the journey back subang i slept for 1and half hours. TIRED! my friend keep playing Jacky Cheung song, is quite old but nice through.. an inspiration that i got from his song... It's better to not have a relationship at It's better to not have a relationship at all than to have one that doesn't have a future.all than to have one that doesn't have a future. :)


thanks god for the safe trip. 3hours journey! :) later morning ...... ... .. .. . not expecting too much. everything just goes on and done mess me up, ty! :)


vamp dairies i havent get ep 6 frm the web that i usually search for movies. :( hope later morning they will upload it! cant wait!!!! :DDD


time to SLEEP. night nation!

FUCK YOU!

Region of assassins for overall i rate 6/10. if you love martial arts you should go and watch it (maybe u will rate 7-9 :D)!

last friday was a awesome STEAK night, lol. after gym i go back home to wash myself, rest for while and go for ZOOK for steak.. rm28 but is really great! :) amie(my friend) stay at my house that day too. saturday he sleep on and on and on.. on and on and on.. from i think 3 or 4 midnight untill 5pm evening. hahaha!!! 1 word SILLY! but i find out he is under high fever... LOL. at night i go mcd for burger :) fish burger. less oil. hahha! and go for a movie name "Region of assassins" at 11.15pm until 2am :)

today(sunday).... er... morning go to church. and...... afternoon i go home and learn how to cook spag so that i can cook for myself when i go back to subang later. this morning i spend some time with god, i just got myself recharge. i am ready go for a long journey!!  :)  God can help you overcome any obstacle in your life. You just have to have faith in God!

about 30min ago i just fetch my friend to bus stop he is going back teluk intan, maybe next week i am still going to back hometown so... we still could met :) for the journey back home a MALAY shit drive slow so i speed up try to cut his car.. but he press the foot oil so that i can't cut the line. and the front car i coming towards so i break immediately and get back to line. and my mouth and my hand is in AUTOMATIC MODE. i salute him with 1 finger and SHOUT FUCK YOU!!

will be starting the journey back subang at 8pm :D bye nation! :)

train harder :)

I am being me.. i cant be perfect.. but i am real.. :)

just got a new way to train my chest and abs.

4 kind of push up 3set each repeat for 15times :)

abs is INSANE training for me. both leg is up for the same time and put down the same time :) cycle :) then another repetition on 1st part but now the leg must 90degree and next will be push through.. i hate this.. my neck will like going to cramp and the next i have change to normal sits up and the last will be foot to foot crunch :)

anyone who want to train using my workout or my old workout can add me up or drop your comment in chat box :)

i am finding a partner to train myself so that i wont be lazy and taking off day, haha! have to get 8hours of sleep.. zhao sin :P bye.

believe (law of attraction)

I don't necessarily have the best of everything. But i make the best of everything that comes in my way.


i believe everything is going to be fine! :)  tomorrow is the deadline to pass up lily assign.. yay nice trick ya mate, at the 1st i called both of you to do 1st and 2nd part and you told us your laptop !@#!@%$#^%$&%^ sounds like bullshitting..bla bla bla.. straight away tell me the main point. i don't want to do. it will make me feel better! :) today i can actually see that you are acting... BAD ACT, i can read face expression and body language. your caring is so FAKE.. Brayn the lily assignment i havent do anything hor... aiyo how arh? any part can let me do? wad the fcuk?! 


i felt happy :DDDD the sem is going to end and i know you all cant make it ... retake sub is the thing that you guys are going to face for sure!! yay :) bye bye!


6pack is still in progress, hope to see you soon (i do workout at home-mostly- i eat healthy food and i don't take any muscle juice. my shape is 100% natural, and i feel proud of myself) :)


about cassie assignment today. an argument between 0.5 mark you are not satisfied with me. since the 1st time we discuss assignment you all are not attending sometimes this person missing, sometimes that person missing.. the worst part.. i have to follow all of your time.. i want 10am and if 1of you want to change to 2pm i cant do anything but follow but when 2pm reach.. i am the one who is waiting there.... sms and calling you guys where are you all? are you all coming... when you guys reach most of you open your laptop to facebook or gaming... and i did it all ..... you all just go to GOOGLE and simply type a words and COPY PASTE to let me see... when i look at it........................... wtf?! what is that? stock market???.... is there any related with our assign topic? some of you is more intelligent so you guys simply write some point and give it to me and ask me to make it sentences and check the spelling error... when i take it home and open the paper what i saw is CRAP....!! no point at all... then i need to ask you all to redo and you guys ask me to do it myself.. and i need to do your part of work..... when the lecture ask... i just silents and those who did nothing will said we share share... HELL yeah!! SHARE the same mark with me without doing nothing. unbelievable!! GENIUS!! actually there is only 3of us should get A and 1 of you maybe get c or d? and 2more get nothing... did nothing, ask nothing.. (but being honest with me before they know their marks)


A B C D grade actually is not important to me. i just want my parents to proud of me because the cousin on my dad side is all very smart full A straight A for them is just sooo sooo easy to get! they just gaming all the time and study before exam. and their parents like to show off their results to my DAD and MOM. and my dad will scold non stop but he didn't saw when i was study like a crazy fellow. all he saw is the result is BAD = i study nothing, i just play all the time. is so unfair sometimes..... my mom know that i am upset so she will just giving me support and call me to work harder... don't let others look down on you. deep inside my heart i know that my mom is sad but i am not a person that like to study. i hate books... i hate to memorize... and i BM. international language is ENGLISH why should i still need to focus on BM and sj?... when you going to interview will they ask you to speak in BM or ask you in 19xx years who is the prime? NO.! is all useless.. no point to study for that kind of sub. that is just a tools for the government to earn and suck our BLOOD(money)


i really wish that 1 day i can leave MALAYSIA. bring all my family member and leave this country. this is a country that treat people depends on their skin color. malay always get the special Privileges!!  SATU MALAYSIA is not realistic all all. stop day dreaming that someday indians or chineses will be prime.. is all MALAYS!!


ROTT in HELL babe!


i might be charged but i just want to share to the world what i saw and felt for the citizen of the country!


the smell of gunpowder is will there... better don't pissed me off, don't said that i didn't warm ya!

train and enjoy my life like no tomorrow!! :)

Miss lily assignment is left conclusion part :) same old shit many of them did nothing! life goes on. i don't care anymore.. let it be.. your future is in your hand if you want to put it inside MDM car i will just say BYE BYE! :D


need to say ty to my old friend alex. he share me a vid to train abs i think is quite insane (thats what i searching for) bored with the same routine. I just try the routine today.. i rate 7/10 because he didn't teach the proper way of doing it.. but the way and the burden that the exercise cause you is.... O.M.G... haha!


i miss the taste of the burger :( :( i know that i have to be strong.. conquer the feeling or i will end up with 6 in 1 :D


i cant wait to go back hometown this friday.. going to my friends daddy gym. :DDD friday and saturday is so so going to TRAIN!! sunday will just depends on the situation :D and 1 of my high school friend will be going to work in SUNWAY.. shop...... i think will inside bar or something related. bar tender is i am not mistaken :D


FRIDAY... gym eat and go home.. saturday, celebrate tudi b'day, hang out, chet chat, sing k. how enjoying is my life, hahah! :)


my kai mui, justine asked me 1question last night... why you so in love with that girl... i answered "is there any reasons to love someone?" the day i went back hometown is da day she comes to kl :( but she be staying here for quite a period of time so i guess we can still met :) i want to date date date with her... i want to walk walk walk beside her.. i want to watch watch watch those movies that she love together with her.. sit beside her.. the prettiest angel that i have ever met.  :P


tomorrow is going to be a GOOD DAY.! i hope and i wish it will come TRUE.! :)


[its not what i feel for you] Its what i don't feel for anyone but you. Some one asked me what i saw in you and my only answer was everything.

thank you to all my siblings :)

I can no other answer make, but, thanks, and thanks.
- William Shakespeare


thank you for the support and the encourage! :)


after all i need to give a BIG BIG BIG thank you to GOD! :D he gave me an opportunity to enjoy the one in only moment! :)


i have been stop muscle training for 3days. 1st day... meet with my mom (go to shopping with my mom) 2nd day.. i sprain my neck.. =.="'... 3rd day (today) (recover 90% but is a busy day for me.. morning shopping until evening about 6 go to my cousins house full moon party until 11pm. lol)


need to train hard on next week(tomorrow)! this 3days i have eaten a lots of HEALTHY food.. potato, corns, carrots, beef, chicken, satay and some oily food and ice-cream, yogurt and alcohol.. lol :) lol :D lol XD   1word would be describe all. OVERLOAD! hahah!


tomorrow still need to face english TEST 15% total =.="'... god bless :)


lily assign need to pass up on wednesday. tomorrow and tues will be a extremly BBBisi day for me. :P


When I LOOK at you, everything else just FADES away. When I THINK about you, I FORGET about everyone and EVERYTHING else. When I SAY I love you, I MEAN it!

H

Wrote your name in the sand but the sea washed it away..
Wrote your name in the clouds the wind blew it away..
Wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay ♥


your hair, your smile, your eyes, your humor, your family, you being your self, are just the beginning of why i love you.!


night :P

My theory :)

Life's too short to be doing the same thing each year, its time to enjoy the spices of life and start exploring the world :D


this is one of the main reasons i get myself into magic circle :)


:D


How to be successful? first you must change your own attitude..


you will never reach your destination if you stop n throw stones at every dog that barks at you...


:D


life is a story.. i dont know exactly how u came in the story.. but i want u to be in it till the last chapter! :)


:D


just having another webcam chat with HER just now, is fun! fUN and FUN!  :)


we are going to meet soon. mummy will be coming kl tomorrow morning i think will reach here on my lunch time :D but i cant meet with her... need to wait until friday. my mom is straight away for to stay with my cousin because the place i stay is too small... :(


"Xuuuu Foookk SAI" i can express all my feelings and anger to HER :) a very good listener, adorable.. charming... is just too many to be describe so i prefer to use.. Undescribable!! PERFECT one!  haha!


One chance, Two hearts, Three words. that's all it takes. i am waiting for the right moment :DD


before i leave my page i want to say Goodnight to all my beautiful friends! Night to all my ugly friends too! :p

L.O.V.E

Last night was... .. .. . :) want to webcam with Xx and she said that her hair is messy. when i tell her go to comb her hair or wear cap, she answered me that night time comb hair, very weird la. but i know what she is thinking in that sec so i didn't force her to do that. :)


well i haven't make a point why we both are webcam chat, here it is... she is after her EXAM and she it totally BORED sitting at home and did nothing so i trying to entertain her with my magic :) she deny the fact that i can perform magic with a very classic reason. "optical illusion" haha! :) someone is naughty block the screen don't want let me saw her D: and trying to scare me off with by telling me GHOST is around me. hahha.. thats cute, but i don't scare :P


I think this year we cant celebrate our b'day together that day because of the final exam on nov 20th. need to study.. :( hope we still can have a belated b'day celebration.


have to go do get myself some workout. just eat some FATS food this afternoon. :( today dinner is going to be milk and crunch, same with tomorrow morning and afternnon, hahaha.. is been called meal champion by some friends :)

TEST :|

Will be sitting for my test tomorrow afternoon :) 2more days to go.. mom is coming so do the presentation =.="'... need to find formal shoe and tie.. damn... the lecture anti us for wearing short sleeves shirt and wax. MUST -long sleeves only plain or line pattern is allowed, tie, belt and black formal shoe- screw you! i want to find a white formal shoe nice one for long and now....... u MUST us for wearing black... HEY miss! is that the law that set by college or your law? you prefer black but not everyone does.. maybe i will just borrow the formal 1 from my friend or my dad. :)

just got a call frm my friend... i will wake u up tomorrow i will be right front of your house.. 6something =.="'... wad da.... nothing special today just . ... ...  today workout is pretty special.. haha! i train until i really cant make anymore sits up.... feel my muscle cell all DEAD. fun.! 6pack where are you hiding... please don't just let me see your shadow.. show me your face please! :)

Off to lala land now. night! :)

hair cut :(

i just cut my hair on saturday... Fuck the salon baber for my hair cut. :F i show him a pic for the hairstyle i want. he said en, okay...

then after he cut... i ask her... wad da... why.... . . .. like this?!? , behind my hair why square shape wor.... and the front part i said want very very short and this part why still...?!?!??! He just answered me 1 sentences and he got me speechless :F (erm, actually your hair quality is not same as him. you cant do that kind of hairstyle... .) FFFFFFF!!! my hometown salon can shape whatever hairstyle i told him.. your standard is low just admit it. u cant cut what i want just tell me honestly i wont fxxx you.! after you give me shit only you trying to cover your own mistake with this kind of BRAINLESS reasons? cheeee Bx!

my anger is over! i wont trust any salon ever again. only my specific hairstylist can touch my hair... from not on!!! by the way, saturday i go for "detective D" i rate 7/10 quite nice.. full of imagination, many mind tricks is playing around the movie. 

sunday is not really nice but i just take it... :DDDD i dont care, life is short i must enjoy the fullest before i walk to another dimension. lol

Kmk put aeroplane... said want to have a gather.. i wait him about 2 and half hours and i still don't see any of his shadow around (while i am waiting i am studying for test. lol) i msg him once to get to know where the hell is him. he didn't replied.. at the end i dunno is he coming but i inform him with another sms to tell him.. i don't want to gather dy. find another time. just now i was hanging around at ................... i think is tesco, haha! buy myself a bottle of orange juice and milk :D

is 1am so i am going to off! thanks for my fans (readers) to make my blogger alive. kindly leave your msg or any opinion in the chatbox so that i can improve.. what to improve? any view of my you think i should have to improve.. i wont eat you up SO don't worry. :)

random :)

I noob like FENDI. i cheap as LV. quality like BURBERRY. looks like PRADA. smell like GUCCI. smart as COACH. my world is like DIOR :(

this sunday got a magic lecture but i am not sure whether is going or not.... 1more test to go ... .. ish... :(

my mom is coming kl on thusday :DDD yesss!! i her so much... YAY, finally i can met her.....  :D arrh shit! just notice that this sunday i got cousin full moon party. have to let the lecture go... :( 

mind reading  is still under investigate,,,, hope that i can handle it well. once i know the truth,,,, Hope i could face the FAKE people with a FAKE smile, not with the F word. :|

My depression is unstable nowadays but i have tried to fixed it and try hard maintain myself in a stable condition so if you guys saw i close my eyes and looks like suffering please don't ever ask me.... just let me alone. ty! :) 

the 1st step of transform will be start on tomorrow! 1st step hair cut... :) what kind of hair? hahha.. i am pretty sure it will blow your mind.! i couldn't believe i will make that decision too. i just want to try, to prove to VEGE NOOB that i dare to CUT! i got guts. got BALLS. :P

Heehe! night people! :)

face expression, mind reading.. mentalism (:

Genuine smile- The smile which you actually can see the eye line in the end of the eyes

Chin shrink-  Admit

Manipulator hand style-  Controlling something, Under control

Pupil constriction-  If the pupils get smaller (unless the room is bright), then the person is indifferent(cheerless)

Pupil enlarge- If a person pupils get bigger (unless the room is dark), then you can bet that he or she is interested, aroused, or afraid 

Fear-  Swallow saliva or you could see the movement of the root on the neck

Surprise-  The eyebrow would be going up(jump up) for 1sec and back to normal

Pain-  The person will be squeeze both of the eyes if they are truly in pain

Crossing Of Arms-  This person is closing himself / herself. He or she might be uncomfortable with whatever is being discussed.

Here is some tips that i would like to share :)

The old saying, "The eyes are the window to the soul" may be a cliche, but it is true. The eyes are automatically regulated by the brain and give many clues into their owner's thoughts.

If a person is avoiding eye contact, then this is normally attributed to being frightened. If the conversation is casual and there is no overt reason for nervousness, then it is an indicator that the person may not be forthright.

With regards to lying, if a person is asked a question and is looking toward his right it means he is fabricating an answer rather than referring to their own memory.

When talking to a person, notice the direction that their knees are pointed. If the knees are turned towards you, then you know that the other person is interested in you and agrees with what you're saying. On the other hand, it they're turned away from you, then you better think of a way to capture their interest.

Observing unnecessary movements is another trick used by both lie detectors and poker players. Each individual has his own personal ways of venting nervous energy and can be identified when a person: licks his lips, curls his hair, shifts his weight, scratches his head or nose, etc. The trick is to observe a person's movements and twitches and compare them to the outcome of the situation or the person's reaction to a conversation. It is important to keep in mind what makes a person nervous. Embarrassment, lying or when something is at stake are all reasons and should be observed in context.

One common sign of a person's infidelity is repeating an asked question in their answer. For example, if asked "Did you spill this milk," an innocent person will normally be direct and just reply "No." If a person says "No, I did not spill the milk," it often means that he is lying as the person is going above and beyond in order to reassure the interrogator.

If a person is lying, he will often fill silences or pauses with useless banter such as "Do I look like the kind of person that would do that?"

Often out of frustration or when lying, a person will attempt to turn the conversation on the person asking the questions, casting blame and attacks outward. A person who is lying will attempt to do this in order to alleviate his own tension, and a purely frustrated or upset person will do this simply out of hurt. The key to telling the difference between the two is in the manner of the question. When trying to figure out if somebody is lying, present the questions in a casual manner so that the person has no reason to become frustrated.

i am having a deep research about face expression and mind reading plus mentalism there are related somehow :)

what do i eat? :)

meal champion :) 


breakfast :  milk 2glass
lunch : 2bread 
dinner : milk and oat crunch 


want to look good? is easy..  EAT good than you look good, EAT junk than you look junk just as simple as that :)


stop muscle building for 2days (my friend suggestion.. because over training will cause muscle cramp or hurt parts of the body muscle) 


test is putting me in a stress condition. =.="' ... i rather go on top of the stage and perform than facing the test.... we will meet after 2weeks time. this 2 weeks time i may not find you like i usually do because you are facing your exam and i got my test :) wish you good luck. Praying for her everyday is a part of my life (: 


have to off now. tomorrow test . ... hope that... .. . . it will be . .. .. .. ... a good ending? lol
bye!


If it is possible, I will do it. If it is impossible it will just take me a little longer! :)