day without you would be..

Brayn мя. mentalist

I AM AVAILABLE FOR..

*MAGIC performance including close up, stage, event (i do cards, rope, nail, coin, bills, ring, rubber band.. all soft of magic :D)

*mentalism, penetrate, prediction and more..*

kindly add me on my msn: quanlove_qian@live.com.my

or

send me your contact (leave on the chat box) nor mail i will get to you :)

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Without You Days Are Like ; 


' Moanday '
' Tearsday ' 
' Wasteday '
' Thirstday '
' Frightday '
' Shatterday '
' Sadday '


just have a gathering with my friend. because today is his birthday so... no choice... :( need to go out celebrate with him... and my body can't take it anymore.... have to off! night people :D

muscle cramp?! :|

Brayn мя. mentalist

I AM AVAILABLE FOR..

*MAGIC performance including close up, stage, event (i do cards, rope, nail, coin, bills, ring, rubber band.. all soft of magic :D)

*mentalism, penetrate, prediction and more..*

kindly add me on my msn: quanlove_qian@live.com.my

or

send me your contact (leave on the chat box) nor mail i will get to you :)

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all my friend advice me to stop muscle training for awhile or u will end up with muscle cramp but... i don't feel is enough for me.. i can still did more set of exercise :)

i have to ask myself to stop bother about others people business!! =.="' i am not busy buddy just that i could not stand some of the attitude of them.. so i have to stop them or else they will step on my head :E

having 3 day same old shit.... breakfast (milk)   lunch (bread, bread and bread)  dinner (milk, soya/bread)

When you see i am in a silent mode .. don't ask why.. what i can tell is i am not upset of anything just i don't feel to talk.. if you really do close to me you would know i will never stop talk once i start :DD but i don't usually talk in college.. the smell of cigarette .. jokers and those tiny tiny little things can just messed up your mood .. i ain't going to complain nothing.. i have to appreciate what i have, i am sure somewhere in the world there is people that suffering more than me. they face it with patience and faith.. i have to learn to be more faithful. GOD i believe that u have plan my destiny, i only have to make my move and u will lead me to the place that i want to go.. i wish to go....

this years don't have emerge for talent so i don't have to prepare my competition routine. rest 1years, haha :D

last saturday i miss a magic show to perform at my hometown :s 

The time has come for me to create some new magic or practice magic. i don't usually perform magic since i come to subang. i was famous in my hometown because of my magic, people want to know me just because they want to learn or know the secret of magic. FAKE friend =.="'.. want to USE me for their own advantage. i rather have 1 or 2 of real friends than getting TONS of FAKE one.. (this is the reason why i don't like to perform magic in my college :D i just want to be normal person.. Be a SPOTLIGHT is making me felt tired [need to care about my hair whenever i go, must set before going out.. my cloth must be nice and suit for the place i go, shoe must not have any dirt on it same with cloth.]) i enjoy my college because i don't have to care much.. i don't care about my hair, cloth.. probably all the things that people will look at i will make it NICE to get some attention... i did all this when i was still in my old school. :D

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Around oct 25 she is coming... :DDD still got 25days..

Guy asks Girl : Whats your dream? Girl replies : To be kissed in the rain. What about you? Guy says : To be the one kissing you ♥

Is hard for others to hurt me. but is so much easy for you to hurt me, maybe i put too much care on you  :'(  The easiest way not to get hurt is not to care, but that is the hardest thing to do. ♥

It's love.You don't get to choose when or with whom,you just fall. ♥

i miss you badly... phone out of credit so i couldn't msg you :(

all the best for your exam :) don't be a vampire that awake at night and sleep in the morning.. not good for your health, study smart and play less yar.  this is your final and i know you have plan your target.. don't keep facing the BOOK.. you need to relax sometimes  :)

SEI fei G = is a way to call FAT ppl :) she is coming to kl... heee (:

hahah!! sei fei G!! bet u regret everything now...but u shouldn't because not long ago it was all u ever wanted and now u have to deal with the mess u have created! too bad for u!!! friendship is a relationship that we can use it and betray whenever we need.. "sei fei G" said that inside class not far away from where i sit... i heard it... i cant control myself i hope that i could give him a slap right away... (copy others people assign 100% without changing any resource or words. BRAINLESS person..)

asking who? give you all a obvious tips.. the characteristic of that person, keep shaking his head playing with his hair all the time.. maybe 3times in 10sec? hahaha!! LMFAO. btw his hair look so damn shit ugly.. he thought he had a nice hairstyle perhaps... seriously fucking ugly la!! cant stand of it.!!

cut the crap off and continue my story..

i feeling like lack of protein so today my lunch i brought myself subway sandwich name "steak and cheese" but the beef is so little la... adui... after i ate the whole thing my stomach still felt like nothing.. =.="' so i drunk 1 more glass of milk.. 

have to search for more protein food but not those oily and FATS food around my place. :( :(

egg, potato, bread, meat... unfortunately i dunno how to cook.. but now i am fully regret and wish that someone could teach me how to cook a delicious meal. i only know fried egg and maggie (quite useless :( :( anyone can teach me cook spag? because is easy to cook, can be ready in no time :D)

she is coming to KL soon :) hope we can celebrate our b'day together after mine b'day the next day will be her b'day... :D I am a great believer in fate and destiny... i felt it was fate that i met u and destiny to be with you :) 

 ♥ Even though I don't see you everyday of the week like i want too, just the thought of knowing that there's a possibility of seeing you tomorrow brightens my day :) will prepare myself in the best condition to date you! :)  ♥

memory

A quick flash back about the things i been through with you..

the 1st time we met was in june 2007. i pass by your class and calling you princess and you called me back shao ye (:

the 1st time i give you something was in a hall, i giving you a chewing gum and you thank me for that and your friend are all looking at us. :)

the 1st time we met outside the lab was the time that you are still prefect. u stand at the corner while you are on duty (:

the 1st time my heart pumping and i was shaking is the on 2009 feb 24 i gave a valentine present to you, teacher and student are all looking. some are making fun of us but is worth because i actually expect you would just denied my gift. :)

the 1st time we hang out is at the cinema i am sitting beside you, but u are holding your phone and keep on texting ( quite :(  :( sad )

the 1st time you ask me for help, "ling yao" case.. he did something stupid and you want to stop him because it might cause you into trouble and we both go to met him and in that very 1st time i see you pissed off and walk away, i felt sorry for i am too weak to protect the one i love :(

and for the 1st time i didn't contact you for a long time was in 2009 too, something happen.. misunderstood  occurs.. but at the end we are still friend. (:

and for the second time i didn't find you for long was when i been chosen to go into ns. my phone battery got some problem and sometimes i just can't get the signal to send any msg and your phone num is always playing inside my mind. summon me to make a call... to confirm if you are doing right.. 

i can't erase all the tiny puzzle that is inside my mind where your shadow, smile, laugher, words, emotion... just like a curse is haunting me. i willingly accept the curse, i will be right there whenever you need me. (:

i keep on upgrade myself, i want me to be the one that you see, you care... i learn magic... i build muscle.. i change style in cloth, hair.. nearly everything (the only i cant change is my height :( sorry)

If I had to chose to save the world or save you, I'd save you because I wouldn't be able to live in a world without you in it

love the way you are :D

vege home, vege shop.. :)

hahaha! today i get my english test paper is 31.5/50 but my target was 42 actually :(

straight to the point... to i was performing magic at my cousin vege shop. haha! but a man (prodigal- i know that after my cousin tell me) come to me and call me to perform magic, then i just simply perform a beginner easy, simple stun.. and he called me to lend him my cards and he start showing off those flourish (to those who are not into magic or poker cards u might not know what i am trying to said)... i stop him and tell him that i actually know those flourishes too and he give me back the cards and start shooting words.. you know ar? i got work inside magic shop before de arh.. i am instructor, I AM INSTRUCTOR... (i was thinking.. wad de fcuk?! cheee baii u. you work in magic store that mean u PRO enough to judge me? if buy a car with a transfomer logo izit that will make my car turn into transfomer? if i go into girls toilet and i will becoming a girl? if  someone sell coffin that mean he sleep inside coffin everyday?.. scientist have proven that there is no cure for stupidity (: u can bark like a dog but you didn't show me any of your magic just talk big... ) next time i will pretend to be a NOOB and see what you got. if you can't amaze me, i can guarantee.. you will pay!! btw, shame on you... you are 3-4 years older than me dude. get a life!

heeeeeeee muscle is getting more and more..... hahahaahaah :D :D (SEXY)

 i hope its not too soon but I LOVE YOU, more than I ever loved anyone before.

22th and 23th is fun! :)

22th 10.30pm i get a phone call... is from gay bitch :) that was a joke... is my ns friend... he knew that it will be a lonely autumn for me so he invite me in with 2 of her friends. at 1st i thought we will just chatting, bullshit about NS MEMOREIS but i tell him before my magic is more stun if we still can meet after i continue study because ns ban so many things to bringing in two words to describe the feel "spoil mood" and the bitch was like.. you don't lie la!! you cannot this, you sure cannot that.....

but he totally STUN with my first mentalism magic that i shown him. just give me a number between 1-10.. i asked him twice do you want to change? he is so so sooo think that i am crazy and said NO!! i don't want. and i call him open the box of my deck of card ..before i perform i have putting 1 card inside and that will be the same as what you name now.. "you ask for it!" :) the others two girls (my friend- friends) reaction >> are u serious....?! after my friend "mun kai" reveal the card the words come out of his mouth is wad d fcuk? i don't believe my eyes... and her friend starring at me................................. you are crazy.. how did you do that? Are you using hypnosis....? o.o (we having fun time there.. i should said that they enjoy my magic show and i enjoy performing the magic to let them see)

23th- i was late to my class today but..... god bless the lecture taught nothing just call us copy question and answer it , pass up next week... miracle huh? in god everything is possible "have been mention this for quite number of time (: but still i want to mention this once more!"

after the class a classmate of my... name........... i dunno =.="'... i admit i forgot... lol, is hard for me to memorize chinese name although i am same chinese :( he come to my house use my laptop to did the assign (last min kaki=.="') keep calling me to help him for the point. i dunno whether he himself is thinking...but he done it anyway :|

night time as usual i train my muscle. i smell 6 pack :) :) muscle training is one of the way for me to vent my feeling, singing is another way of my so you will see i sing all the time (i don't mind if u putting attention on me or laugh at me, but if you are trying to challenge me please sing front of me, let me see what you got :P)

my management assign tittle a little bit out of the topic but i hope that is still fine :( i want to score this paper so badly!! *recently i notice that cassie attitude is same with my mom, the only different is my mom is white and she speak funny english :DD*

have to off! bed time (:

people said magicians hand is always faster than his eyes, do you felt the same? ha!

i am not making 

happy autumn day! to all who are reading this :)

i hate computer lab assign damn bored la change the words find the pic in google and arrange it. LAME!

tomorrow going to pass up cassie assign and english test is coming along at the afternoon. bored la. need to change place just to take the test... ( hope i can score well this time :| )

moon cake festival without eating any moon cake and spending it alone just sit on the bed and playing with the laptop ( i am not a nerd, i am just too lazy to move )

more experiment for new element and ideas in magic will be coming soon too planning to perform nail and cups in the next performance. it might be danger but still..... is cool lar weih..!! cant stop myself just because afraid of it.. i will have to ask for precaution because if anything goes wrong, the next time we met you would see though my hand. got what i mean? a hole that leave from the nail through my hand :)

eating fire effect is quite cool but not as the nail, heeee so i strike for the nail (:

just order a small stuff from a friend of mine hope i can get it and play with it soon :)

cups and ball will be coming after i find a suitable ball for myself, heee.. anyway happy autumn day people! :)

random

need to apologize about "the change lyrics version 你不知道的事" because it still haven't done yet, i admit on satruday and sunday i was enjoying without finding any inspiration :(


the last time i change a song is when i was inside ns (because i emo that period missing my parents, my valentine and my friend) that makes me change a whole new version song about 彩虹 by jay chou and forever love by lee hom in just 2 days :)


my ns friend salute me for that! ha. hey is going to be 3 again awww man!! i plan to sleep on 1 or 2 but.... shit!! tomorrow i have to blog on 12 that will make me speed up my schedule if not my body will be going into danger zone :( :(


mind mind mind what are u thinking.... stop it and get some rest. u need it!! now.!  xx

two of you.. sei naughty boy yr gor gor damn miss you all la weih!! :)

wait i come back bring you all go gai gai agian ya. the white shirt fei zai you should keep fit ed and another huai dan, haha this pic just put a smile on my face larh.. so i share it here :)

 i may not be the one who loved you from the start, but i'll always be the one who loves you most.

non-title :|

a lesson of my life : if u doing the same old shit u will get the same old shit. you need to change if you want to get others result so keep trying and don't give up.. i have trying more than 2 and half years or i think i getting 3 years just to search for this theory, hope u guys can use it in your own life! be different, be unique! and mostly be yourself! 

and about my magic i think is time to quit for while...... i hope it will be same as kung fu. ( quit for while, when u get back to it u will be more stronger. lol )

with all my days and nights going smoothly i cant train my six sense anymore, my fear had gone.. i become unbreakable (:

cassie assign i had promise myself to pass up on tues although the dead line is on fri. need to give 2 point by finding in the passage but i just got 1.. i think tomorrow i have to met her on the consultation hours.  btw english test is coming..... with the IQ that i have now i don't think i can get a nice result。

I break the promise with her... i told her that i need to off on 2 but till now i am still on.. sorry :( :( is because i want to done my assign.. sorry ha if u are reading this.. 

When you love someone, there would come a time that you wont be able to hide it anymore, no matter how much you wanted to keep it to yourself.. i miss you! ♥ :) ♥ :)

:'(

As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.
Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.



You, who never understood my feelings
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would be by my side.

after this i am going for a long bed time... :( :(

today.... ... .. .get my management paper but the result is not what i expect.... quite disappointed with the marks.. let it be history and work hard for the next paper! :(


afternoon as i plan i am around sunway to shopping and watch a movie i rate 7/10 too short and the ending was.. wad da f**k?! thats "PIRANHA" ... and about resident evill i get many respond and comment from friend that movie sucks!! lol, so i am still 50/50 dunno whether is going to watch it... about my shopping schedule is a secret so i am not going to share.... zippp.. :|


and i back to A.C for dinner today.... damn dylan... we eat fats food again.. start from today no fats food for 1week at least.!! i want my 6 pack abs i don't wan't 6 in 1.. continue eating if u want to grow big... like a women that is pregnent, haha :P


and tomorrow i decided to sleep until afternoon and........ still have no idea yet... because my high school friend can't get off so i got no transport and i am quite bored with sunway hope can go to time square and bought some cloth and stuff to "package myself".. but not going to buy shirt because i have damn lots of shirt inside my wardrobe. more than 40+  =.="'.. should donate some to those who needed :s (and no i am going to donate, i am keeping it.. some of the cloth is my precious memory although i just hanging there and people will feel like..... this is ANTIQUE fashion cloth but this is all my GREAT GREAT GREAT memory and so sorry for you if u just threw your memory away and want to find it back..  :P)


the inspiration  and ideas is still not yet coming so the song is still blank............. :( :(


bedtime...... i don't want to have panda eyes, haha :)


"What worries you masters you." :)

"你不知道的事"

今天这一篇 是华文的, 大家应该会比较习惯..

刚看了 恋爱通告 ... 也在 这部戏里 看到了 自己的故事.... 多多少少 有我自己的影子....  我是个 不容易掉下眼泪的人. . . ... 但 在观赏时  还是忍不住 眼眶  流下了眼泪...... 

一首 "你不知道的事" 作曲 和 填词 都是王力宏.. 我承认在没看他 现在的实力前 我对他 的欣赏 就普普通通 ... 在 不久前的 意外 我和 我亲戚 去看他的签唱会 就在 当下 我感受到 他的震探力.. 他把米可风 控制的 很好 声音 很厚 结实 动听 也超有感觉的..

今天发生了什么 我都忘了... 应该是  我的情绪 还没恢复平静吧... er 只记得 今天 我的management class cassie 老师 看到我facebook的某某 status 就在班上说... 难怪 你 这么creative.. 我刚看了你的 status 想法 果然 很不一样.... 过后就去买 ribena 和 牛奶.. 其他都忘了..... 打算 现在 就 把 王力宏的 "你不知道的事" 重新 改词... 把自己在 爱情里的故事放进去... 

等我 改好了  会上传上来... 尽情期待 ... (: 很少人 知道 其实 我很喜欢 改词.. 可能是自己 不喜欢 和别人一样吧.. 因为不会改 曲 so 就没办法... 如果可以 我希望找一个搭档 :) 有兴趣的 可以 在我 c-box 留下 e-mail.. 至于演唱者 应该会由 我 和 我的亲戚 (之前商量过了) 来诠释.

就 写到这里 吧..... 要去 改词了..

what a luck and what a luck... i am so happy right now :P

what  a luck that my assign file was gone... just like that...

and what a luck that my group win a activity (got extra mark in the final) hahaha... A team is form to find the ingredient and promote the INGREDIENT that u have found to let others get interested to buy your product. in my team i we got 5 person include me. 1 indian girl quite nice :) 1 international he is a smart person. and 3 more asians.. hahahah, quite lame actually we need to find mc donalds cup, floopy disc, cotton ball, team picture and bla bla bla.. we got it all...in 15 min and the lecture give us 30min for that... not just that, we still need to creature our own GROUP NAME and SONG.. group name is damn nice lar wei....!! "GOOGLE" i suggest that.. because we got all things that others need, we are the solution of all the problem... if u have any problem u can just google it. lol. :)

and i just found out a old friend of mine (coin magician) he is totally sick with the coins. santiago :D and...... the GREATEST part is... the present that i gave her on the valentine day she still keep it... inside her room neh :) yay yay yay!! :)

about the song that i want to change the lyrics 你不知道的事 will only be start produce after i done with my eng assign. btw EPS assign is done :P la la la. i am safe right now. ty lord for helping me on those information, heee :) 

The day i thought my life was going to be horrible forever... I met you!

It's strange how certain things remind you of certain people. ♥

bending fork using your mind (mentalism)

not going to perform this anymore only if i got any show or else... i will keep it for her.. after my sem break, wait me yar :)

no more fun, back to business :|

i think i have going back hometown for week but everyday i spent half of my day sleeping and another of it hang out with my old friends and i dunno maybe eating or chet chatting online :)

for the whole week i just meet her 1 time (the moment was never so fast before and its over..) i miss her badly..  the journey when i sitting inside the car and hearing those "love song" my memory keep refreshing... is all about her... i have no choice but  bury all the feelings inside the deepest place in my heart... i don't want her to know that..  love is not like muscle training that if u work hard time to time u will get the target... 

dear father,

if that is not mine please take it away from me, i know me myself  would be suffering for that .... maybe months, years but i put my trust in you. there was a time when i face all the stone and challenge in my life and we meet and in just 1 sec of smile she melt me and i got the strength to continue to face the world. for the paper work i just expect i can complete it on time... by the way i am running out ideas.... online research is not working for me when the info that the lecture give is not clear enough... i have to repent myself for being rude to my parents this afternoon because i really fall into the stress that the world is giving me... don't expect too much from you, i can't give u all you need, i am just a ordinary person with all the crazy ideas and thought that spinning inside his head 24hours (when i sleep i am not SLEEP actually, i am just giving my body time to rest and when i awake my cells will burn into little pieces of ideas)

 (i will try to resist my fear, and i don't think my mentalism will works on you but is worth to have a try) :|

 The most secure way to keep love is to give it space and care to grow. If you hold it too tightly, you will lose it.

haha! sorry guys.. here u are this few days schedule of my :D

arh damnn sh*t.. i need to retype what i wrote just now accidentally delete it!!


fri after my english quiz about 12pm i walk back home and i find out my house mate from china want to go back to his hometown not for raya but a long holiday because he got no more classes in inti until net years feb. lol. and when i chet chat with him i find out the moden is in his room and when he left i plan to take the moden and put in my room. (their room is upstairs mine down so is pretty lag for me sometimes) in the same time when i take the moden down to put in my room others saw it but they didn't stop me, haha :) :)


my line will be smooth from now on! :D and i start my car go back to my hometown around 4pm. and i put my key in the old house.. on the way back home i searching for my keys.. and... AWWW shiTT!!.. can patah balik tak? then i go back and take my keys back. lol, btw thanks for my hou heng dai dad for fetching me back home and for the patah balik... i'm sorry! =.="'


saturday morning 9pm i go to penang for timo marc's lecture, the lecture is about theory but i get many info when he share all his ideas and thought. :)


here is some pic in the lecture :D

group pic 

he is preparing for the show! :D

isn't he looks cool? (:

picture that i take with him will be upload in facebook soon :) but not here sorry! haha.. he truly inspire me in magic... we should add more elements in magic.. be unique! be yourself! be creative!

PIMP-UP YOUR MAGIC! LMAO..

have a great time with him and i found out white magicians are lots easier to communicate with... they share experience and ideas not keeping all inside.. :) thank you timo!! hope we can meet agian someday :) :)

VISUAL MAGIC!! (: (:

i still got 3assign to be done but... but i am relaxing 1st! :P

planning to perform F**k B**d for layman in my hometown.. beware, i am mentalist!! :P